The rapid change of this democratic and insensitive world didn't even try to make an impulse to my sanity. The timer stops and resets but no one's claiming it's existence as if it's just a mythical part of living. Then the wonder began...

How could someone just decide for themselves without thinking other peoples affection? How could someone let other people get away with their faults? How could someone hurt a precious heart? I did. And never will again.

Last night I dreamed about something that I never imagined I would still be dreaming of. A teddy which seems to be a present for our anniversary. A hug that felt so eternal. A kiss that felt so real. Then I realized, next month is our month. Is this a sign of guilt? Or just a typical flashback? Im confused. I think the reason why I am like this is because I haven't let go of the past. The promise that I broke, the future that we're suppose to sort. I'm sorry. I am the one to blame. I may not see you now but I will try to find you and make it up to you. At some point I'm hoping that you're alright. Might be happy with what you have now or even happy with someone else. I hope you do...I'm wishing you really do..

See you "P"

soon...